A is for the Anguish I feel
N is for Never escaping this wheel
X is for the Xanax I take
I is for Intense feelings of torment I make
E is for Every moment of my waking existence
That I have not enjoyed because of this illness
Y is for Yearning for a cure
That I will find nevermore.
T is for the Truth that I will forever seek.
W is for When I was younger I promised myself that it’d get better.
E is for Every day I never gave up hope.
N is for Nearly dying when I couldn’t take anymore.
T is for Trying everything in the God damn book.
Y is for every Year I wasted trying to find a cure.
F is for Finally Finding something that could help.
I is for Interrupting that by stopping all my pills.
V is for Visiting what I use to cherish dear.
E is for Every soul who understand how it feels to be mentally ill.
What has helped me wasn’t a belief in something greater
It was belief in myself, something I discovered later.
Who came to me wasn’t just the light, but the darkness also called out.
For a life of suffering, for years, without a doubt
changes a person inside and out.
An angel said not to fear
and the demon said, “I’ll help you dear,”
So I took the lights advice
and greeted the demon thrice.
Once with a bow,
Once with a kiss,
And once on the demons lips.